"Vocation at Age 40" by Jacob Gapko
On November 15, 2017, Jacob Gapko turned 40! We invited him to speak at worship, and followed up with a birthday party. Here is the text of his reflection.
Vocation at Age 40—Jacob Gapko
My vocational path or calling has
been a winding road. It all began when I
was baptized as an infant and freed from sin and death. Baptism transformed me and my body into a
living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God and gave me the freedom to live
without trying to earn God's favor through works. My gift of curiosity and asking questions,
however, my have dismayed my Sunday school teachers with my militant belief in
science as everything—I don’t think I displayed much faith until my teenage
years.
When I was three years old I was diagnosed with
Duchenne muscular dystrophy (DMD) and, by my teen age years, I knew that my
disease would likely shorten my lifespan.
When I was 15, I asked my parents what might seem an odd question,
"Do you think I will live to be 29 years old?" Let me provide a bit of context. I figured
out that I should be able to get a Ph.D. in physics by the time I turned 29
(figuring six or seven years after I got my undergraduate degree). As I have gotten older, I realize I have a
gift from God for teaching by example of living a rich and full life in spite
of the DMD. I share my love for music,
books, travel, etc. with others as an example of how to live that rich life
even with a disability. I think I’ve
done well in treating "failure/loss” as an opportunity to see more clearly
the path God wants me to follow. I’ve
not let DMD beat me down. I did ask a
friend what gifts she sees I’ve been given to help me in my vocation. I was surprised with a list of a dozen gifts—patience, fortitude,
gratitude, humility, knowledge, wisdom, kindness, loyalty, contentment, curiosity,
persistence, and hospitality. My message
here is: If you can’t see your gifts,
ask someone to describe them for you.
I was a physics major at UW Eau
Claire with minors in library science and mathematics. My gift for physics began in 8th
grade when I won first place in the science for my project in gravitational
waves. My plan was a direct path to my B.S.
and then off to graduate school in physics. For the summer of 1999, I applied to Entry
Point, an internship program sponsored by the American Association for the
Advancement of Science. Entry Point is
specifically designed for undergraduate and graduate students in STEM (science,
technology, engineering, and mathematics) and provides internships at
NASA. The coordinator of this program
placed me at NASA’s Goddard Space Flight Center in their technical library
because I had a background in both physics and library science. This opened my mind to another path besides
physics, which my physical limitations may have prevented. I later pursued library science instead of
physics for my master’s degree. I might
not have recognized it then, but I do now see that having faith in Jesus took
care of the two basic human problems—sin and death—and allowed me to know that
there will always be a vocational path for me, even though it may not have been
the path I thought I’d take. God’s will
shall be done despite us saying, “no, no, no.”
(Think of Moses as one example.)
As an undergraduate, I was
published in the ALAN Review based on
my research on the available books by and about those with Duchenne muscular
dystrophy. At that time, I could only
find four books. After I received my
Master’s degree, I applied for a grant from the American Library Association to
create an annotated bibliography of books by and/or about people living with
muscular dystrophy. This time I was
able find about 50 books to review. My
work is still available on the Muscular Dystrophy Association’s website.
With my Master’s degree, I worked
for one year as the cataloguer at CVTC and also started graduate school
again. As a doctoral student at UW
Madison in Library and Information Studies, I have struggled for many years
with the question, “What role should personal experience play in one's
research?” Eventually, I arrived at the
conclusion that one should allow personal experience to help direct one's
research. For me this meant that I would
study the information needs of persons living with Duchenne or Becker Muscular
Dystrophy. And that is what I am doing
currently. Gifts that God gave me that
make working on a PhD possible include an analytical mind, willingness to
listen to others, a giving spirit, perseverance, courage, patience, and
fortitude. All are needed to climb the
academic mountain that a PhD is.
As for other gifts from God beyond
the intellect, I believe I also have the gift of leadership. I am the current president of the ULC
Foundation, which helps fund seminary students and the campus ministry in the
ERC. I served the CVM for 9 years on its
board of directors. I’ve also served on
the ULC Council and served a variety of campus organizations as a student,
including emceeing the Honors Banquet one year. We all have different gifts. Paul instructs us to not hold our God-given
gifts above others. For us to function
as the body of Christ, we need everyone’s gifts, not just mine, but yours and
everyone elses.
I regularly read the “God Pause” daily
devotions from Luther seminary. The one
from
November 8, 2017, concluded with this prayer which I share
with you now: God grant me peace this day.
I surrender my will and my life to you. Teach me anew; make your way
through the barred doors of my opinions and prejudices; keep me humble. Amen.
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